Contentment In Christ

It’s difficult enough honestly judging one’s own motives, let alone the motives of others. Long ago, as an angry young man pursuing an acting and music career in L.A, I wanted to be rich and famous while living with no self restraints. Thank God, I experienced a radical transformation in 1988 when I gave my heart to Jesus Christ.
Since my ordination in the Assemblies of God well over two decades ago, I must confess, my attitude for my ministry as a Pastor and later as an Evangelist was “bigger is always better.” The reasons for believing that were frankly, sometimes fleshly, other times honorable, and honestly too many to go into here (and I am not looking for any debates).
However, at this point in my life, after so much water has flowed under the bridge, as well as intense self-reflection and prayer over the past several weeks, I’ve come to the realization that I am okay with not being well known but instead, I am good being small, because my Savior is so big, and I can rest in His loving care. My only desire at this point in life is to be found faithful in His sight.